Hi Stephie:) Thanks for caring about my existence, I'm alive! woo hoo!
So since school I've sunken into what feels like the endless depths of my bedsheets for days on end and for 12 hrs a day. It's pretty ridiculous to say the least and I'm neither proud nor ashamed...(okay I lied, I'm TOTALLY ashamed). Every day I awaken to the ever reminding bladder call that refuses to be ignored after several attempts, and I pull myself out of bed just long enough to slump over the toilet for as little time as it possibly takes to relieve myself and then drag myself back to the quicksand of my slumber. I consider getting up for not even a milisecond when the devil on my shoulder tells me I have nothing to get up for and I fall back asleep before I can even make a half-hearted attempt at a rational and responsible argument, and then its too late to even reconsider before the next bladder call arouses me for yet another lost argument with myself. So alas, I've allowed myself to be a prisoner of my own lack of anything, and continue this cycle almost everyday of the week. So the reason I haven't blogged is because I was avoiding exposing the horrific truth of my daily existence.Now you know...
I haven't sent out for my test yet, everything's ready to go I just haven't made it to the post office. I know you're all probably very disappointed, but I'll get it done soon enough. I'm going back to being a nurse's assistant just long enough to raise enough money to send out for the second part of my application and to pay my bills.
I went to Gainesville on Saturday though and I got to see Sam, Rayna, Eric, Jason, and Gary which was totally awesome and revitalized my spirit!!! I need to come visit more often it seems. Sam is playing in a band called Trump's Wig (lol), and we got to see him performing onstage in Gainesville. While I was there I gave a massage (which I haven't done in FOREVER) and it felt really good to be in that space again. I'm so thankful for that moment in time, it was a reminder of what I NEED to be doing with my life. I've been feeling so useless and I'm so ready to give back to the world and feel that sacred space and feelings of productivity again. Other than that I've been playing with the dogs, taking long baths, and immersing myself into literature and living lives vicariously through fictional characters:D te hee What a life!
Anyhoo, I hope I didn't bore y'all too much:)
So how's everybody else?
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If your circadian habits are less than prolific, your lyrical prose makes up for it... twice.
If there's one piece of advice that I can give (for which you most clearly did not ask), it would be this: Take the exam now, even if you can't afford to buy the license right away. The sooner you take the test, the easier it will be for your recently schooled head, while the license application requires nothing of your neural networks other than the application of a postage stamp.
That's all of my "You oughta's..." = ) Take em or leave em. OOH wait, one more: You oughta keep posting!! Even (especially) if it's to share that you're doing nothing because, it would seem, you have the most verbally romantic way of expressing that = )
So nice to hear from you!!!
-marshall
Awww, Marshall you're so sweet! I love you:)
Thanks for the advice and emotional support...
Rosalind
Hey Rosiland,
Let me begin by saying, “Yea, what Marshall said”. Well written. Rosiland, I too enjoyed the style of your writing. I must say that my heart went out to you as I read your post. As Marshall so aptly noted, you did not ask for advice. I can however, I hope, offer my own experience.
Rosalind, there have been times in my life when I have felt that I was not on the path that I had chosen or wanted to follow. I've found that as long as I continue to aim in the direction that I want to go and I take little steps, slow and steady progress can, and will happen. Sort of like the old Chinese Proverb that says, “The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step”. It has become a little cliché and yet it is so true! Continue to aim for your dreams.
Stay in touch girl and know that the Winter Class of 2007 loves and supports you (that's my experience).
Get it on girl!
Love ya,
Greg
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